The Opposite of Loneliness – Essays and Stories by Marina Keegan

Beautifully poignant, altruistically sad and brilliantly fresh donned with crisp ideas and a lucid style. Absolutely loved it! The continuous theme of death in many of the stories sets out even more so in the backdrop of her own tragic demise. As Arundhati Roy said in God of Small Things “a sunbeam lent to us too briefly.”  From philosophical musings to generic observations of life, Marina Keegan’s prose and context is a sobering reminder of the magnanimity of philanthropic thought coupled with individualism and the inevitability of finality, of death, seen not as an “end” but as a cessation of life.

“We’re our own hardest critics and it’s easy to let ourselves down”

“We’re so young. We’re so young. We’re twenty-two years old. We have so much time. There’s this sentiment I sometimes sense, creeping in our collective conscious as we lie alone after a party, or pack up our books when we give in and go out—that it is somehow too late. That others are somehow ahead. More accomplished, more specialized. More on the path to somehow saving the world, somehow creating or inventing or improving. That it’s too late now to BEGIN a beginning and we must settle for continuance, for commencement.”

“The middle of the universe is tonight, is here,
And everything behind is a sunk cost.
—Marina Keegan, from the poem “Bygones”

“We were involved, of course, but not associated.”

“Brian’s death was the clearest and most horrifying example of my terrific obsession with the unattainable. Alive, his biggest flaw was most likely that he liked me. Dead, his perfections were clearer.”

“I remember finding it extremely hard to open presents as a child because the requisite theatricality was too exhausting.”

“my state of mind reminded me of the world’s remarkable capacity to carry on in every place at once.”

“She understood silence the way he understood darkness—running from neither as the sun set and the words ran out.”

“I felt an odd nostalgia for my high school friends and the days when everyone shared the same world of people.”

“I wanted to crawl into something and lie with our faces touching for as long as it took to feel like I didn’t miss him anymore”

“My mother always said how amazing it is that things seem so absolute when you’re young. But the sand slides down in chutes until the dune craters are all full. Inevitable, the magazines write, and we shake our heads with somber nostalgia for the grass and its crickets. We always will.”

“I’ve started praying. I’m sure your raging atheism finds this amusing. It’s something about this place. The flowers, the marble, the people who don’t go more than four hours without stretching towards Mecca. I don’t know what God my mind keeps consulting—but I’m hoping it’s one who doesn’t believe in Jihad.”

“It’s like the country is unraveling from the inside.”

“Kyle wondered whose job it was to erase the memories from someone else’s life.”

“A man received an eye transplant and began to see things from the donor’s life. These cameras, he decided, must function exactly like that.”

“sorry I kept talking to her all the time when she probably just wanted to sleep or eat or start mapping her world”

“I try to remember these months objectively but it’s hard—and around thirty, they started to haunt me.”

“My reaction to his presence was always visceral”

“My eyes hurt from seeing but there was a strange hope in the blue light, and the weeks of darkness drew us toward it like moths.”

“I believe this functioned in the same way as not being able to taste your own saliva or smell your own odor—the car and I were pleasantly immune to each other.”

“The task was strange, like deconstructing a scrapbook, unpeeling all the pictures and whiting out the captions.”

“I worry sometimes that humans are afraid of helping humans. There’s less risk associated with animals, less fear of failure, fear of getting too involved. In war movies, a thousand soldiers can die gruesomely, but when the horse is shot, the audience is heartbroken.”

“Beached whales die on their sides, one eye pressed into the sand, the other facing up and forced to look at the moon, at the orb that pulled the water out from under its fins.”

“There was nothing to be fascinated by, nothing to esteem, nothing to romanticize in this everyday examination of our immutable solipsism.”

“Suddenly and totally, we’re threaded together in a network so terrifyingly colossal that we can finally see our terrifyingly tiny place in it. But we’re all individuals.”

“I was lying in bed the other night wondering whether the Germans created a word for its opposite when I realized that the displeasure derived from the fortune of others is easier to spell. I should have thought to coin its green eyes.”

“I blame the Internet. Its inconsiderate inclusion of everything. Success is transparent and accessible, hanging down where it can tease but not touch us.”

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s