Verge.

The last thread hanging: I can write no more. An untimely demise of my words and me.

Closure of Impersonal Sorts.

He scrolled through his contact list seeking company and conversation. A to Z rolled in vain.

“What am I doing? I cannot accommodate trust in words anymore. What am I going to say? The blues of making formal small talk will sink me in my own self.”

Time and time again he reminded himself of the once sworn (self-proclaimed, self-afflicted) solitude of a kind that rendered him incapable of personal discourse. Now it came crawling back, claws undone. Occasional visits from the past entailed nostalgia and a degree of melancholy.

“I am feeling terribly lonely tonight.” He whispered to himself in hopes of getting a misleading retort from the muscle that now ached.

The rendezvous with a few chosen but somewhat close friends had no effect whatsoever on the torment the morning wake was. He had dreamt it all over again; the barred walls of his school and all his associates around him. But this time he was seeking. Running corridor to corridor, meeting flashing faces of people he once knew.

No more.

THE DREAM

I am running again. Away from some. To some. The grounds look exactly the same as they were when I left the school. It is a mob. I have been instructed to keep the kids away from trouble. I am running again, seeking assistance of any kind. I see old classmates, happy, ignorant of the prevalent situation. I am all sweats. It bothers me no more. I see new friends. I do not approach them. I am keen. I am still seeking. I am hurting. I am alone. I drop by in an old class. I well up. I had come so far I never remembered what I was here for. 

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